to win the best, be at your best

oh yeah today was such a wonderful day without any flaws. cause i woke up on time. and my dad wasnt angry with me. hahaha. then went to school sat in front of the class. only one motive and that is not to get hair-checked. muahahahahahhaaha. back to class. blah blah blah cme lesson mr tien made me an ultimatum saying if man utd win, my grades will go down. vice versa. argh that was so. how to say. nevermind. but i believe man utd will win european champions league. cause my instinct said so. oh and then it was physics. 58. totally shocked. cause i was aiming 70 - 80. haiz. but then heng ah. only section b and c 58. haven't count section a. LOOOL. got pawned by physics god junyuan though. nevermind.

hereby apologised to mrs ng for making that stupid remark. hope she wouldn't mind. all kaibin's fault to throw that paper ball to her. chem results. yayyyy. chem god pawned physics god. hahahaha. DETHRONE ME? not so easyyyyy. hahaha jkjk. quite satisfied. yeahhh. then assembly DJs came. the angmoh speaking guy's chinese accent is so funny. hahaha. then after that checked english marks. okay quite expected. not so demoralised by it anyway.

CCA. first time since 29th april i play the viola. and first time since sec 1 i have the role of leading. cannot rely on seniors anymore. cheryl came in, took her violin and went home. awwh that was so saddening. oh well. taught three juniors how to play some simple simple stuffs. vivian samantha and one more don't know the name. outstanding students :D vivian can advanced really fast but. the who still need more time so . have to slow down abit. in the end haven't taught them c major. ARGH. and mr wong want listen to them play i was like so kanchiong. uhh. sec 1 juniors are all very nice and cute. to lead and guide them is my pleasure :D

k then after that did some farewell cards to my fellow seniors. i must say the ones i did were really nice. cause it's done by a guyyyyyy. unlike others all girly. LOOOL just kidding and no offences. two new songs to learn, Frippery No.2 and Dance of Iscariot, the latter i learn alr. very very nice songs. looking forward to the first time the orchestra play:D the prospect of my leading my viola section. hahahahaha im really excited about it.

3 more days. and at the meantime worrying about pe project.

yesterday and today in between the space of 24 hours i spent a whopping $36. and ah 2 movies. angels and demons and night at the museum 2. very nice way of celebrating post-examination wildness. heh. and ah yesterday was with kokting kaibin weekian and gerald. at first was supposed to sleep until late late de. like 2pm to 3pm. but ah. 10.30 in the morning the stupid gerald go call me. haiyuh. then ask me go out. then i go turn on the tv to watch basketball! and yeah im the jinx for lakers cause whenever i watch theyll lose. sad luh. they 1.11pm supposed to meet at hougang mall. in the end everyone late except poor kokting wait by himself. lol. then hor we dunno where to go. cause organiser dunno how to plan. say want to go bugis in the end ask go bugis for what. (sad to say the organiser is me). erm then went to plaza la. kokting wanted to go vivo cause his wife there. haha. then gerald wanted to go plaza cause jiayu there. woo. i wanted to go sibeilor pray temple cause its marking day =.= ok and we walk walk walk chat chat window shopped. then decided to watch angels and demons. everyone dunno what the show is about. then thought is about holy holy angels and baddy baddy demons. ok blah blah blah the show was nice. and blah blah blah we went home.

ok today was much funner (cause more people). oh morning still have to go for training. and it was quite slack. cause danny first time conduct with juncheng in the team. hahahaha. then went home. bathed and changed and go to compass. took my own sweet time. and was late by 30minutes ;D. but birthday girl late for 1 hour. gees went to plaza sing. then split into three groups. crap mannn. night at the museum was nice. not as interesting as yesterday's. hmm. and thanks to cassandra and pearlyn for throwing popcorns on us. i asked junyuan to give me eat some of his popcorns. then i put those thrown popcorns inside MUAHAHAHAHAHA. im bad. i hope he wont read this. lol. then we went to vivo and watched them play water. i emo with weekian. HAHA. then junyuan got ganged. and he hurt his wound. omg. like the sour plum sweet leh the scab. LOL. then uh yuh we went home. haiz.

wow 10 long days without blogging. doesn't mean my blog temporary not active means i die already. hahaha. first half of the exams are quite okay. at least im still surviving. lol. 4 down. 4 to go. chemistry physics amath and biology. worry about the last 2. hahahaha. then still got the stupid rio tinto which we have to stay back to do. haiz cannot celebrate on thursday. but on friday saturday sunday can celebrate :D of course one day have to subsidise for the retarded pe project. uhhh. if not it'll be mostly basketball, going out, or jumping at home. JUMPING. as in skipping :D

cant wait for next tuesday. string practices resume. hopefully can play the two songs once more. no stress and no fear. it'll be a perfect piece and truely gold standard the next time we play ;D. and for my viola section. once the seniors are gone. then i will step up and be responsible. we have improved so much over the past two years (cause got me?) and i will make our improvement even more prominent over the next year. LOL. egotistical self like back already. but surely the seniors will be missed inevitably. so we must not be intimidated by the loss. but embrace it and improve !!!

don't really know how to explain. but its like during a race you manoeuvred across all the major impediments and obstacles. and suddenly while approaching the finishing line. you fell down and struggled, giving the rest of what you've got and trying to burn 100%. 15 more days to the end of the last paper. just hope that the rest of my energy can cover the 15 days. i may look like having excess mental exhaustion. but urm. (don't know how to continue.)

P.S. after biology paper. the real me will be back. genuine and exactly what i appears to be. hahaha.

i guess this week and the following two weeks will be extremely stressful, those high mental tensions testing my limits. its not easy trying to cope with so many things. really. somehow getting distracted by the reminiscences of syf practices, syf competition and the outing we have had last friday. and then suddenly seniors saying goodbye to us and as the better violinist or violist we have to take over as the section leader. then there's mid year of course. but the distraction simply did not come at the right time. its like when you try to forget about this. the next horrifying thing appear. it scares the hell out of me, getting those horriphilation that i do not want. homeworks are stacking continuously. all 2008 mid year papers given right at once. its not as though we're not given the time to do. but its the fatigue that make us want to neglect it. and it goes on accumulating. it doesn't help when you keep thinking of someone. someone who recently have such a great impact on you. hearing the name and seeing her is just like an antidote that can counteract a poison. but once shes gone, the intense and painful feeling of fear comes back to haunt you. just can't put this feeling behind and think of my studies. even when i goes to bed, the hysteria continue to bombard my mind. even went 4 hours lying on bed from 12am to 4am, couldn't sleep, feeling helpless.

in class, you don't see me talking and playing with yixiong and junyuan like before. you don't get the sociable and gregarious side of me. if i look happy or whatsoever. then i must be pretending to be. i thought sunday is the only emo day for me. but now monday has become one too. and in time to come, who knows, maybe the entire week. this is just an emotional post. just hope that no one will be like me.

today met at compass 9am. i was late for 15minutes. but ah lucky la cause a lot people still in bed when i reached. then i bought pearly(n) milk tea from the douhua shop. omg so nice soya bean milk got pearl one. hahaha then take train to serangoon. take 22 to dunno where. take 854 to dunno where. then take 403(or was it 401) to east coast. hahaha alighted at wrong bus stop. so chaoting, elvin, isabel and me took taxi to east coast macs. hahaha $3.60 only. pearlyn's taxi $3.80 LOL. and yay ate mcchicken meal. the person give me attitude after i thought today got student meal. then when he ask me what drink i want i also give him attitude. "milo la." LOL. then then then we went cycling. 1hour rent 1hour free. so noob loh. cycle too fast then must wait for the others. haha. then everyone separated.

after that play water. i didn't brought extra clothes. but ah. some stupid pear go throw sand on me. kick water on me. wah. the feeling damn disgusting. then suddenly isabel suddenly run from behind push me pull my hand drag me to the water. stupid raper. uh. then we formed an ally. we gang other people! yay! lol. victims so poor thing. then keep aiming me. urgh. whole hand sunburnt cause of the pulling and scratching. and chaoting exposed his upper half. lol. and elvin that kuku go drink seawater. hahahhahahahahaha. crazy! then soon evening liao. go eat subway. so hard to order things. honey oat subway melt honey mustard toast tomato cabbage double chocolate chips coke sprite lemon tea mixed together huh no ice? lol. then went home. yeah. got rid of that sickening wet shirt.

string outing was totally cool. hahaha how i wish everyday got this kind of outing. confirm one of the best days of the year ;D