its too late,
with my current status as a cca leader, i dont feel that i have the right to play basketball with my best friends. i dont feel i have the right to be in a second cca, why the hell am i running when i should care more for my orchestra.
i just couldn't have a stand, dont know how to shout, can bear to scold juniors, overshadowed by others. im only the sit-down-and-play-your-instrument kind, not stand-up-and-lead-others.
reading your blog just makes me sad.